I am currently at Jurong Point Coffeebean and i am liking it here! I cannot seem to remember the last time i actually had a proper update, so i guess i might just as well do it now okay?
As much as i complained that life been shitty & all of that sort, life still move forward i guess. i hate that so many things in my life right now but it seems like i do not have enough guts to make a change out of it. i do not have enough courage to face all of this, even the simpliest thing like going for the Resort World Interview this coming saturday is already starting to freak me out! what if i land myself with a job that i don't quite fancy, what if i am not earning enough to support myself in the coming years; that kind of questions still lingers on my mind every single day, you know.
And as much as i want to quit & pull my heart away from you, it doesnt sound as easy as it seems to be. I want to be so much independant than this and to stop depending on others just to own some happiness for myself. I want to stop having imaginations of us doing all good & leading a fairytale story kinda shit. I know i am better and stronger than this! If you're not even willing to give us a try, then why should i.
Sometimes i wish i could just wake up one morning and have everything else on the right track.
To put aside all the sorrows & tears & worries and to be able to put a real smile on my face. But for now, tell me how do i even start?
