IM GOOD | IM GONE

Maybe tomorrow.

2010-04-22T16:51:00.001+08:00

Because sometimes it gets so tough to pretend like I didn't miss you at all.

All of these, it doesn't come off so easily. I hope you're doing fine though.

Say whattttttt

2010-04-16T19:24:00.001+08:00

I'm blogging using itouch, God I love this gadget!

2010-03-04T18:46:00.002+08:00

Today is officially the first time Im doing closing on my own ever since I started working. Im quite nervous, afraid that I might make some mistakes. But on the other hand, I kinda like it. Its like I've been given this huge responsibility and it seems that my superior kinda trust me enough to let me do closing on my own. Oh, its past 7pm and I swear it feels like a night in the musuem!

I had a talk with my manager earlier on and she agreed to help me to talk to my school regarding the 6 months bond thingy. Fuh! I am so relief that she's fine with it though.

So alright, I gtg. I need to do some last minute settlements. I hope you all are doing fine though! <3

Helllllllooooooooo

2010-02-19T17:58:00.003+08:00

My laptop just crashed and there's nothing for me to do during my off days, which sucks by the way. So oh wells, wait till I have enough money to get a new laptop!

Hiatus,

2010-02-11T00:32:00.002+08:00

I've been busy lately and I don't seem to have the urge to update this blog. But the private blog is an exceptional of course. So okay, I'll be back when I feel like it :)

But...

2010-02-08T21:10:00.003+08:00

I can't do this anymore. I need you badly.

2010-02-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

I was on Msn with Phir and he told me that its annoying because my blog macam so emo core like that. Sorry lar baby, but sometimes the emotion get a lil bit too much for me uh. Not that I am not trying, I am of course but then again, I am only human remember?

But here's some pictures of what I've been up today though!

How bad can it be?

2010-02-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile. When I will let go of the hugs you gave me, a day that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me. Whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go of, or forget about you.

Laskar Pelangi,

2010-02-03T17:22:00.001+08:00

"Sepalat-palat hidup kita, kita masih lagi mampu belajar dekat TMIS, MDIS, TP, RP, NYP. Sepalat-palat hidup kita, kita masih boleh lagi berjalan merata Singapura, shisha dekat Arab St, tengok Gossip Girl, lepak samapai 4 pagi. Sepalat-palat hidup kita, kita masih boleh lagi bangun dan makan lauk mak kesayangan kita masak. Sepalat-palat hidup kita, kita masih ada $2 dalam wallet, masih ada lagi maggi dekat dapur. Kalau fikir balik, takdalah palat sangat hidup ini.

-Rasmakast

Shopping spree,

2010-02-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

Impromptu plan always tend to work better for me. And I also tend to spend more during such impromptu plan. I wonder why!

My kind of life,

2010-02-01T22:36:00.004+08:00

The things to keep me company when I'm at home alone. Not that I am complaining of course!

Le sigh,

2010-02-01T01:07:00.002+08:00

I miss you, I do. I still love you. Everyday I wake up and have this ache in my chest. And sometimes, I just sleep in because I know when I wake up, you’re still not gonna be there.

2010-01-30T00:39:00.005+08:00

The next time we meet, must make sure we play L4D lar sia!

Every 29,

2010-01-29T01:42:00.012+08:00

Its been exactly a month since you've been gone and I'm still not moving on.

"You were the first nice guy I met after so many bad ones. And I didn’t know if you were the one or just the first good one, so I went out and met some more guys. Some of them were fine, but none of them were you."

If you're happy and you know it,

2010-01-28T01:34:00.007+08:00

Its so amazing how we can talk and talk and still talk. Its like we have thousand of things to tell one another. The laughter and the stupid pictures, oh I think we need to do this more often! :)

Triple two,

2010-01-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

I have a lot of things to update but I guess all that can wait. For now, I really really hope the house in Tampines will bring good news to my family! :)

2010-01-26T04:06:00.001+08:00

Its already 4:25 am and I am wide awake. Insomnia!

Memories,

2010-01-23T23:10:00.001+08:00

I was uploading pictures from my hp and I found this. Good old double date times eh Girlfie? And this might sound weird but I kinda miss wearing that bowling ball helmet! HAHA.

Have always been about you,

2010-01-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

My hair was in a mess, I was perspiring like a dog, I was in a daze concentrating on my music. And then, I bumped into you. Yes, you!

You coming over to me and saying hello was already enough to push away this terrible feelings I had in me, although I still wish I can see more of you.

You're so fcuking special,

2010-01-21T14:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I still 'see' you under my block, in that favorite polo tee of yours, waiting for me. And then you would smile at the sight of me, hug me and then you would tell me how much you miss me and how awesome my hair smell.

Its always these littlest things that takes me there.

I scream Icecream,

2010-01-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

I look shitty in the pictures, I know. But I don't care! Because right, I finally tried KOI Bubbletea! We travelled all the way to Chinatown to get it and sumpah, it was worth it!

& I love everything about today, such impromptu and laid back outing.

Pieces of me,

2010-01-20T03:56:00.000+08:00

New York I love you movie session, Old Chang Kee, Yami Yoghurt, Chicken Mcnugget Meal, Orchard Central Rooftop & lots and lots of talking & ~~mesmerising~~ reminising.

That's what you get when you put two girls who are trying to ~~fix~~ mend their broken heart together.

Quality over quantity,

2010-01-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

My saturday was spent with these girls who actually wished me a "Happy Belated Birthday Ima" with a bag full of goodies!

My life seems pretty fine, isn't it? :)

Still holding on,

2010-01-18T16:45:00.004+08:00

This was the day when Azlin and me had such tough decision to decide between Prosperity Burger or Mcspicy Meal, Curly fries or the normal fries & Coke or Greentea. Hell yeah, we are such suckers for food, especially Mcdonald.

This was the day when I actually met and talked to Naz (Eiza's boyfriend of 2years plus plus) for the first time!

This was the day when Eiza actually insisted Wani & me to get a boyfriend because she insisted on having a Candy Party with our other halves. Ahh, tempting enough for me to find a new boyfriend already. HEHE!

This was the day when Wani offered me her sweater (I was from Sentosa and all i wore was a tanktop) because she said it might get cold in Vivo. And fyi, she was sick on that day and I think she was secretly shivering herself. Aww, thanks Baby for the sweater!

This was the day when I found out that each one of us has individual's worries that majorly includes our future.

This was the day when I actually counted the number of couples I saw at the sky deck at one time. Total amount: 9 couples (which includes the happy happy ones, the action action to be happy ones and the maybe on the verge of breaking up ones)

This was the day when we sat in circles and just talked. Eiza told me that sometimes its good to let it all out, and I did just that. I felt better of course.

This was the day when I took the train home alone, and realised that maybe, just maybe I didn't have to force myself to move on.

This was also the day when I tried to sum everything that has been happening to my life in 23 words : Life still goes on, be it in good or bad shape. And sometimes, all you need is your friends to keep you going :)

I read this to keep me going everyday,

2010-01-18T13:18:00.002+08:00

Moving on is a process. With moving on comes great acceptance. Along with this, moving on also comes with the part where we have to let go of everything completely. Well, “completely” is not the right word for that, but just as long as we have let go of this one painful piece of our lives, we should be okay. We’re moving on. Why did I say that “completely” is not the right word? We may have moved on but there will always be one part of us that will always remember the past, only that when we have moved on, those painful things will only be thought of as memories, not painful experiences. It is another way to heal. When we say moving on, the word healing comes into our minds. Moving on is a time to heal all wounds. It takes time. It may leave marks afterwards, but you’ll feel better in time. All wounds take time to heal. And it’s the same thing when we move on. Feeling better comes after moving on, feeling all good and fine.

-Tumblr

Better for us never,

2010-01-17T02:20:00.005+08:00

I love everything about this song. The lyrics, the vocals and the cute boy, especially.

Give me tonight,

2010-01-16T13:48:00.003+08:00

I have tons of pictures to upload but I've actually misplaced my laptop cover. And just so you know, my mp3 and my hp cable is in it. God, I am becoming more and more forgetful like that!

Eh babes, the next time korang punye turn lar turon Jurong!! Its always me going over to Tampines lor, not fair you know. So the next time korang nak lepak, kite pegi Jurong Point okay. Settle? :D

For you,

2010-01-13T14:41:00.016+08:00

Spare a few minutes to watch this video & you'll feel me.

2010-01-12T22:56:00.004+08:00

I've been spending a lot of my time with the girls and it's kinda awesome to just sit and talk your hearts out and have someone to listen to you. I know how it feels like to be boyfriend-less for a while but I tell you, I cannot imagine life without the girls. I guess they're everything to me. Oh come on, you girls should know who you are! :)

-That’s when I knew, that I can never have you. I knew that before you did, still I’m the one who’s stupid ”

2010-01-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

Now you've deleted me off Facebook. Oh cool!

I didn't expect this to be messy. But since you want it to be this way, then so be it. I thought we are all matured people. I guess I was wrong. Thanks for making me feel like a real loser though.

Asshole,

2010-01-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

I didn't realised that you are such an asshole, until today. I still don't understand why you have to go to the extend of blocking/deleting me off Msn. How about deleting me of Facebook too?

Reality check,

2010-01-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

Everyone around me are talking about furthering their studies, full time jobs and even marriage. Am I really turning 21 this year?

Im tired of missing you,

2010-01-09T16:56:00.004+08:00

Wake up, find something to eat, clean the house, switch on the laptop, watch some good show on Ch 5 (Read: Growing Up), eat again, take a shower (this depends though, sometimes I only take my shower when I'm going sleep. Weird? Yeah pretty much), watch tv while using the laptop until my parents are back home, continue using the laptop in my room, go to sleep. And the cycle goes on.

How mundane, I think I need a new boyfriend already.

The OC,

2010-01-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

Just something I've pick after watching the show. I couldn't help but to ponder over it. Hmm..

Summer: What do you want from me, Cohen?

Seth: I just want you.

Summer: No, you don't. You had me. You had me at Chrismukkah in a frigging Wonderwoman costume, and you chose Anna. You had me three months ago, and you left.

Seth: I want to make that up to you.

Summer: It has nothing to do with me. It is about you, and it is always about you, what you need and what you want, you know? It seems like you only want me when you can't have me. You like the chase, and that's all. So you know what? You can have it.

2010-01-07T00:08:00.003+08:00

Things I am looking forward to this year:

1) Korea vacation in December with Azlin & Phir!
2) GX-5 Extreme Swing (Jom Azlin & Phir!!)
3) Driving License

Putting you aside, I think 2010 is going to be a good year!

Boys are stupider, send them to Jupiter

2010-01-06T21:45:00.005+08:00

You can be so ignorant. But unlike you, I've feelings.

The real world,

2010-01-04T19:59:00.009+08:00

I won't deny, it was hard to get pass the days but somehow I begin to realise that I don't need anybody else to make me feel content. I think I am happy on my own, well at least for now. Now that I am done with school, I am very much looking forward to what life has to offer me! So Ima, stop sleeping and bumming around. Its time to get into the real business baby! :D

Okay, now i feel so old.

2010-01-02T13:49:00.007+08:00

Dear Ismawaty Dewi,

Things happened for a reason. You have to pull this through, I know you are stronger than this. Stop crying, it doesn't help. Stop thinking of him, for he is not thinking of you. Move on, and catch up with the rest of the world. You'll do just fine.

Love,
Imaa.

2009,

2009-12-31T17:33:00.005+08:00

Its new year eve and Im at home, alone. Im sleepy but I just couldnt get myself to sleep. My thoughts, they always fly back to you. I miss you.

More heartbreaks,

2009-12-29T20:41:00.006+08:00

You shouldn't have take mistook infatuation for love. Now we are over, Im back to square one.

Because Imissyou,

2009-12-28T23:18:00.008+08:00

Sometimes I wish you could just call me to tell me that you're under my block and you would hug me as soon as you saw me, give me a kiss on my forehead and then just stare into my eyes to say that you are sorry.

With every heartbeat,

2009-12-26T16:45:00.002+08:00

It sucks to know that you are giving us up. All I need was just a hug from you, convincing me that we'll do okay. But what had happened?

Where's the boy that I've fall in love with? :( :(

Blissed,

2009-12-21T03:24:00.008+08:00

My sister asked me yesterday,

"You sure you love him uh?

And it hit me. I dont have the perfect answer to that question. I dont even know how to explain to anyone. But if you have seen how happy I am ever since he comes around, then I guess you should know what I mean :)

We turned 20 baby!

2009-12-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

"You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye & I'm swept away.

Happy 20th Birthday, to me!
Happy 2oth Birthday, to you precious!

Magic rush,

2009-12-17T00:08:00.003+08:00

And so, Life been rather smooth sailing. School will be over in 10 more days & its not something I am looking forward to obviously.

No school = The beginning of adult-hood

Ahh, the sound of job interviews is already freaking me out. I just hope that the interview on Tuesday goes really well and I hope too that they wont be paying me peanuts! How to afford a Tiffany like that huh?

& Its been long since I last felt this way. Its amazing just how one person can bring back all those magical feelings back into my life. Its like every single morning, I'll wake up to the thoughts of you and I would just smile to myself. I know lar, so cliche like that but heh heh cannot help it. I would love to see you every single day but of course, thats impossible considering that I have school and you have zomg of workloads every single day. What happens when I start having a full time job and you being enlisted to Ns next year? Noooooo, maybe by then I will know how it feels like to be in Eiza's shoe! But I guess I'll survived.

For now, Im all hype up for our 20th this coming Sunday! :)

Once upon a December,

2009-12-14T17:16:00.004+08:00

Because yesterday night party with the girls was one I could never forget, because my first hotel interview turned out to be really really good & simply because waking up to the thoughts of you can easily bring so much joy in me :)

Ps: If you want to know what Love means, then be sure to watch Paper heart! (Y)

2009-12-11T00:02:00.003+08:00

Why must we constantly argue? :(

Starstruck,

2009-12-09T21:53:00.010+08:00

"I need to get a job. I want a walk-in wardrobe with plenty awesome clothes & shoes. I need a few hundreds to pay off my outstanding handphone & internet bills. I want to waste my weekends making out with you on the couch. I need to stop spending my allowance on food. I want to stay in bed all day & not go to school. I need to go for a jog. I want a tub of ice cream. I need to start walking in heels. I want a fcuken comfy bedroom with a plasma Tv and a Wii. But I, I especially need you right now.

P/s:

2009-12-06T06:09:00.012+08:00

Its been long since I last cried.

Yours,

2009-12-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

I believe that we could be great together. Not just in the we-can-conquer-the-world kind of way, but in the curled-together-under-the-blanket-on-a-rainy-day kind of way as well.

It seems like you are worth it :)

2007,

2009-11-30T19:49:00.002+08:00

This feels weird, but I am missing all the times I had when I was in Bishan. I swear it feels so much better to be stuck there compared to what I am in now.

Ahhh, If only I can turn back the time!

MYOB,

2009-11-27T23:54:00.002+08:00

How do you deal when your own cousin 'hates' you for seeing someone who you're so damn happy with?

Shitty, says my head.
Screw you, says my heart.

Of better days,

2009-11-26T02:08:00.003+08:00

We were supposed to have our SG Idol Marathon but the boys kept putting the tv on mute & thus leaving me to hear them sing instead. But im not complaining, of course!

I think we should make this a weekly affair, how does that sound boys? =D

Nowhere End,

2009-11-23T21:18:00.007+08:00

"I hope we could be all right again
Smoke and laugh at your cigarette brand
I hope we could drive nowhere end
Listen to yours and my favorite band.

Why do I feel like we are not on the same track anymore.
But hon, promise we'll still make this work okay?

Points middle finger,

2009-11-23T01:45:00.004+08:00

Some asshole tag on my friend's blog and started to talk about some redundant shits about me.

1) hey ima! hello gal,who are u to mad at me. you have a fear of making others hurt.
2) Ima,u are small yet brave. but you use ur strength in negatives side of you.

Thanks for pointing out my flaws, but who are you to even judge me eh?

& 'Aeriel', perangai jangan macam budak 10 tahun bole tak? Aku malas uh nak layan orang mcm kau. Tsk.

Heart beats,

2009-11-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

I am so glad that this week is already coming to an end. I cannot remember doing anything productive this week. I didnt pay attention in class and for that, I was all stress up over the Roleplay Assessment. Ape tak, the day before exam balik pukol 4pagi. Eh girlfie? lol.

Other than that, I think my life been pretty smooth sailing lately. Especially with you around :)

"Where Do We Go who knows
But each day gets better
I just can let her go
Each kiss gets sweeter
I just can leave her no"

I think

2009-11-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

Cupid just hit me with its arrow :)

Sunshine after the Rain,

2009-11-17T23:54:00.004+08:00

My sister's bunny is call Cupcake whereelse my monkey, he doesnt have a name yet. Maybe i should call him Toby? HAHA.

On the other note,

1) 3 days 2 Night Batam trip with S & Irfan & maybe the girls in Dec
2) Zooooooooooo baby ZOO!
3) Ice skating on ze birthdayyyyyyyyyyy :D
4) KL trip, say maybe in Feb?

Excitinggggggggggggg rightttttttttt?

Philophobia,

2009-11-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

“I want a guy that’s going to make me laugh, not just every now and then, someone that can keep a smile on my face and somehow turn every situation into a funny one. I want a guy that’s not afraid to be totally stupid with me. Someone that’ll take me outside when it’s raining and just start kissing me. I want someone that will stay up until 4 in the morning with me cause I’m scared of the thunderstorm. Someone that will come to my house and surprise me with flowers just because its Monday. A guy that would drive 2 hours if it meant he could spend the day with me. When I go through a tough time all I have to do is call him and he’d come over just to make me feel better. A guy that will watch scary movies with me even though he'll be scared out of his mind. We’ll laugh at one another for screaming and covering our eyes, and then he’ll hold my hand and kiss my forehead. I just want someone who will be there for me, someone to care about me.

Of sheesha, a can of sprite & a boy,

2009-11-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

How I actually spent my Sunday :)

Curiosity kill the Cat,

2009-11-13T23:03:00.004+08:00

I have so many things I want to know the answers to. But for now im going to pretend like today didnt happened. Maybe everyone else should just mind their own fcuken business when it comes to the matters of heart.

Now you tell me, where's the world that doesn't care?

Of flying Kisses,

2009-11-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

Its a little bit too early but i especially love the way you make me feel all secure :)

& girlfie, more double dates to come;
What say you?

Lazy Mode,

2009-11-11T13:54:00.002+08:00

I got approximately 4 days till the report deadline and im not even half done. Awesome right?

You're contagious,

2009-11-11T01:59:00.008+08:00

"Sooner or later I'll fall completely into you
I've never felt before,
So lets take these candles and follow our
shadows where they go to forever more.

2.25AM,

2009-11-09T18:08:00.005+08:00

So school sucks, im still unemployed & my wallet is empty. How does that sound?

But on a positive side, there's especially Thursday to look forward to. And not forgetting the trip to the Zoo next month & the 20th to make everything else feels complete :)

Sway,

2009-11-07T11:11:00.009+08:00

Ima thinks that yesterday was awesomexz; the movie, late night simpang sessions & whats not :) And today?

We are going Ikea baby!

Of rainbows & butterflies,

2009-11-06T13:04:00.004+08:00

Azlin said,

"WHATS EVEN STRANGE IS THAT, remember how we are always the same??"

lol lol, looks like its happening again eh girlfie? :p

This better be good,

2009-11-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

It truly amazing how cheap a girl can get and how good a boy can pretend. The truth always hurt, is that what you would always say?

Use correction tape can erase already,

2009-11-03T20:41:00.003+08:00

I hate the fact that Singapore is a small country that it seems like everyone knows everyone!

Random but,

2009-11-02T20:18:00.003+08:00

My ripcurl wallet, cotton on umbrella, pull & bear cardigan, black sexy mp3, baby Johnson lotion, Victoria Secret pencil case, stationeries, Silky girl foundation, Daiso blusher, Elf lip-gloss, Cecilia Ahern storybook, pink panther file, Tutorial notes & my msn chat notebook.

Whats in your bag then?

Girls without boyfriend-s,

2009-11-01T16:31:00.006+08:00

“Girls are like apples on trees.The best ones are at the top of the tree.The boys don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren’t as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they’re amazing.They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

We still prefer our before,

2009-10-30T23:33:00.007+08:00

Question: What do you get if you put 3 gullible girls together?

Answer: Easy, you will get three gullible girls who got confused over the word vase & wash and blue & blow in a non-malay-friendly-environment saloon!

Best I have Ever Had,

2009-10-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

Looking back all the years, who would have thought that you girls would be the ones who stood by me through thick and thin. A few years ago, we were just classmates whose conversation couldnt even last for a mere 30 minutes. But look where we are now?

With the two of you, I don't need 24/7 hanging out sessions and constant phone calls. With the two of you, I don't need the perfect words to express myself. With the two of you, I can let out all my imperfections & still feel comfortable in my own skin. With the two of you, I can curse & swear & we could all still remain friends.

& With the two of you, I know the meaning of forever.

There's Hello & there's Goodbye,

2009-10-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

"Maybe that’s just growing up. When you’re young, you tell yourself things like, “Well, if it didn’t work out, it wasn’t meant to be” as if that actually meant something just because it sounds like it does. I think you can say something like that so blithely because you expect to stumble onto something else just as wonderful just around the next bend in the road. But people are rare, perfect, unique things and just because everyone really does live a life full of farewells doesn’t mean you shouldn’t at least realize what it really means to say goodbye to something that meant everything. Just because you will survive and get over it doesn’t mean you should let it go.

15 Things that can make my Day,

2009-10-26T23:12:00.010+08:00

1) Getting a seat in the train in the early morning
2) Sleeping throughout the journey in the train
3) Good morning messages
4) Songs played in the radio which will remind me of a certain people
5) Tall & lanky boys who has their spectacles with them
6) McSpicy with additional cheese to go along with the fries & mayo
7) Getting scolded by the lecturers for not paying attention in class or for giggling too much with the girls
8) Secretly 'stealing' Mas's slipper and pretend that its none of my problem
9) The fish fillet & nuggets with 1 Kilo of Sambal
10) Wanting to rush home from school just so i could continue with my sleeping
11) Reading quotes from tumblr
12) Bumbing into old friends
13) Impromptu movie dates :/
14) Surprises, but good ones though
15) And maybe, you.

Cry me a river,

2009-10-25T02:41:00.009+08:00

And so I asked,

"What if that person comes & go as he please?"

And the answer I received from a boy-friend was,

"Kalau die interested kat kau, die mesti come kat kau. Kalau die tak interested sgt kat kau, mesti die come and go. Come and go means die hanye nak berkwn dgn kau je"

Now that hurts. Ouch.

He only likes me when im High,

2009-10-23T16:12:00.003+08:00

That was last week, when our initial plan was to give Khai a lil surprise before he leave for Australia. But yes, ironically Khai isnt in the picture because he never did came! It seems like as we grow older, it seems harder to gather all 7 of us for a proper Cbs outing! I wonder why.

And as much as i love how perfectly things are falling into place this week, i sense that it will soon be over. I hate it when my mind takes over my body, you see. It is so ridiculous.

But maybe a little hope & faith blending in all together would'nt kill right?

Someday,

2009-10-21T22:50:00.003+08:00

I would kill to have this kind of picture taken someday!

No bf = No life,

2009-10-20T19:20:00.009+08:00

The fact is that my life seems to be so mundane that every single day i cannot figure what to update on this space!

Maybe im in need of entertainments. Some l4d session sounds good though, what say you?

A spell on you,

2009-10-19T20:13:00.005+08:00

" I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, & cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you’re having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes & not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers, once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think “this might make my girl smile” as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he’s got.

Love & hate nothingness,

2009-10-18T17:07:00.008+08:00

" I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. Even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.

You surprised me,

2009-10-13T23:25:00.006+08:00

Your presence today is enough for me to wash away all the troubles that has been flooding on me lately :)

Things do happen when you least expect it, don't they?

Love you boys,

2009-10-12T20:44:00.007+08:00

You cannot imagine how much my heart crushed when i was told of the bad news. At that second, nothing was on my mind except of how fragile life is. Each time my handphone rings, i was hoping that it would bring some good news.

But alhamdullilah, he is fine now. That 2 hrs 35 minutes of waiting was all worth it. Like what Azlin said, God is indeed Great.

Phirkhan, here's wishing you a speedy recovery. I am relief to hear that you are all okay after the operation. You cannot imagine how worried all of us were. Now that you have passed the first hurdle, please take good care of yourself in times to come. <3

Fred, i know i've been saying this time and again. But i cannot help it lar! Please please take good care of yourself alright? Call/text me when you have landed safely in Brunei. Will be waiting anxiously for your return beb! <3

To say goodbye,

2009-10-10T23:33:00.004+08:00

The first words that came from Faiz's mouth when i met him was, "eh ima dah gemok!" That was really 'nice' to hear considering that the last time i met him was only a few months ago! :(

Yesterday Azlin and me kinda crashed over Wani's place to have some baking session. But the baking and filling-in-me-with-your-life session was only about a quarter spent, the rest of the 3 quarter was spent wonderfully sleeping! Nice.

Fred's birthday & farewell party over at Grassroot was cool. But the part of having to bid those goodbyes was rather painful. I cannot imagine not having him around for 8 damn months!

So here's to Faridie, happy advance 21st birthday beb! Please please take good care of yourself while you are in Brunei. Those 8 months will pass really fast, i think. I guess everyone, including me will miss you terribly.

Now why does it seems like everyone is leaving?

There's no such thing as love or fate. Its just coincidence,

2009-10-08T20:00:00.004+08:00

"It's official. I'm in love with Summer. I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks her lips before she talks. I love her heart-shaped birthmark on her neck. I love it when she sleeps. " -Tom

still alive & kicking,

2009-10-06T18:40:00.005+08:00

I know i've been mia-ing for these couple of weeks but i gt a really great excuse! my laptop charger died on me and after surveying for like how many millions of shop, i finally found one that is within my budget. speaking of luck, they say.

I feel like i have kinda lost touch in blogging and so before i bore you, heres some pictures of what ive been spending my time with:

made of swift & fiat,

2009-09-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

More to come!

hello raya!

2009-09-23T16:44:00.000+08:00

The celebration this year was kinda lame, i don't quite enjoy any of it. I especially hate having to endure all the pain i get from walking in heels for the whole day! I am staying in on the second day since my mama said that we are expecting some visitors. ahhh, just the way that i like it to be!

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin!

it hurts with every heartbeat.

2009-09-20T02:08:00.006+08:00

Do you know what I think about all these nights when I can't sleep? No matter what i do, my thoughts fly away to you. I wish I could turn back time, back to the time when you were mine.

love in a blue time,

2009-09-18T00:19:00.004+08:00

Nidji's concert was cancel at the very last minute. That was pretty disappointing considering on how much i was looking forward to see Giring live right infront of my face!

& to Phirkhan, all the best for your competition tmrw. Lets show all the other competitors who is gonna rule the competition tmrw beb!

( ps: Thank you papa for the c&k bag, i am lovin it! )

MY HAIR SUCKS, PERIOD.

2009-09-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

xoxo,

2009-09-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

The day was complete with break-fasting at Tong Seng, the countless hunting for the most cheapest earrings ever, the nak-pegi-ke-tknk-pegi-geylang confusions, the "SAVE GO HOME" inside joke, wani's countless saliva downpour and of course, thousand & thousand clicks of laughters!

i hear 24 September calling us already, girls! Phobia 2 lets go! :D

Episode 1083,

2009-09-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hari raya preparation been a lil bit hectic this year. i havent got my first day baju kurong yet, my house is in a mess (technically it took me 2 days to finish up cleaning up the kitchen. zomg), my mother havent bake a single kueh and blablabla.

oh oh, did i tell you that i have another kitten in the house now? my brother call her Kritik, but i would logically prefer to call her Stellar. she is really really small, but can you imagine when she tend to be one who will try to bully kiara? :o kiara been very grumpy for the past few days but today i caught them playing catching together!

& ahhh, finally meeting the babes tmrw for break-fast! 8)

hairy berry,

2009-09-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

All of these curl seems pretty yummy. Another one for raya, what say you?

Coz i don't wanna miss you tonight,

2009-09-06T03:44:00.007+08:00

why is it that you are always the first person to get onto my mind every single days?

lets get the party started,

2009-09-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

Although Jannah & me were really tired due to all the walking and preparation, we managed to catch Kida off guard by surprising her in Pondok Java Timur Restaurant. I still very much prefer ayam penyet ria though, thank you.

So here's to Nurul Aqidah, happy 19th birthday babygirl! May you always be filled with lots of love, luck & life! <3

NIDJIHOLIC!

2009-09-03T17:17:00.003+08:00

CANNOT WAIT TO WATCH NIDJI LIVE IN SINGAPORE!

since you told me its over.

2009-09-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

I met with the incomplete Cb's last saturday after months of disappearing from one another. We had Nasi Padang for break-fast and then to Starbucks for my not-so-worth white mocha frappe.
(it came in the wrong size & it doesnt even taste anything close to mocha & when i complain it to the cute who is no longer cute anymore barista, all he could say was "so you need me to re-do?")

And today, i had some karaoke session with the girls follow by having our late break-fast at Arnolds. I am surprised that i dont actually sound like the 'careless whisper'. haha! Next week karaoke lagi pe geng? :p

I am not looking forward for tmrw though. Simply because i gt school and also because i have to meet someone i dont feel like meeting. Oh wells, nuff said. Lets just hope everything goes well tmrw!

dearest girlfat,

2009-08-31T16:38:00.005+08:00

Isnt it strange that you will tend to drift apart even with your most closest friend? I don't know what happened to us, but i am very glad that we managed to pull it through. It might be hard for you right now, considering with what you are going through with your family. I hope you know that i am here, despite you wanting to whine about your sorrows or to complain about the slightest thing like the weather or even to share your excitement over some cute boys you saw on the streets!

Always & forever, love you Azlin!

one friday evening,

2009-08-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

I skipped school today & went to spent some sisterly time with my sister to catch 'Coco Before Chanel' in theatre. The movie is highly recommended! I do not understand why magazines are giving poor reviews about the movie, such a disgrace. I was basically concentrating through out the movie man!

And woits woits, me cannot wait to meet the Cbs tmrw! :)